Tuesday, March 2, 2010
So, I'm bulking right now. Why? Because I was too skinny at Nationals. I thought I looked alright but when I saw the other women competing, wooo! I was puny. It's OK though. I know what I have to do so I'm doing it. I am trying to add muscle but that is coming slowly along with the consequence of a higher body fat. Which is turning into the challenge of adjusting my self image to a more positive one because when I am standing up I look fine (I mean, my bum may be a bit juicier than it was in my profile pic but that's good! Well, not for the stage but I have a nice off-season ass), but when I sit down I've got some interference. Anyways, yeah, so I'm doing hypertrophy and working with my amazing trainer who I just have to listen to. She knows what she's doing and I don't. That's what this whole process is teaching me though. How to be more patient and how to listen. I have to be patient because it will take a while for my muscles to grow and I have to listen so that I can learn how to do that. I also know that come stage time I'm going to look right proper and even if I don't place I'm going to be estatic with myself. I just have to slow down and focus on that long term goal. Interference be damned.